"Leukemia"

What a sad beginning to my brand new blog. But it is this that encouraged me to write down my meaningful moments and never to forget them.

My stepsister, Adeline, someone I've never met before in my entire life, has been diagnosed with Leukemia today.

Adeline Tan, 21 this year. Beautiful and bright. She just graduated from Liverpool University with a First in Anatomy, and looking forward to study Medicine in London. She spent the last 4 years studying away from her family chasing after her life long dream of becoming a heart surgeon one day.

Adeline and I both attended Haberdashers' Aske's Hatcham College. She was the first Chinese in the history of Askes' who became House Captain...and I suppose, I must be the second. but I was only Deputy. She was 2 years my senior, hence I only joined the Knight's Academy when she left, but nevertheless, she raised the bar. Great student leader, school athlete, bubbly and hardworking.
But now?... she lies in the hospital bed, fading and weeping over shattered dreams, unfulfilled desires and...countless of solitary nights. Perhaps...counting days...?...I cannot begin to imagine the pain she is in right now. I wouldn't want to...I wouldn't dare. There is nothing anyone could say or do to take the pain or fear away . The fear of never waking up.

Life suddenly seem so fragile. I just realized how fortunate I am to be here. How I took things for granted and how silly I was to have hurt people I once loved so much. It hit me hard today. Too hard. But at least, I am not at a point of no return. I shall begin to treasure and learn. From today on.

I just had my final pull and killed my last ever cigarette. I'll never ever touch it again. Never drink myself silly and never to push away people I love so very much. Today, is my brand new start. Nobody can actually go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending...

Ad, be strong. I will always look up to you.God bless you...sis.

Dream as you'll live forever, live as you'll die today.

P/S: Kid..Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child and the smiling faces. Smell the rain and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential and fight for your dreams. One day your life will flash in front of your eyes, make sure its worth watching.

Mom & Dad: I love you both so much. I will make you proud. =)

Friends: Live. Happily.